You are still the same MAN that I know..

Wednesday, November 25, 2009 - Posted by Joberlyn Manaois at 12:50 AM
You really had never changed, you are still the only MAN I loved so much and no one else I can loved just as I loved you. Your love for your special one, for me, for her, for that little one keeps us of living despite the hard times we have been.

"You are a liar! Yes, you are! You are so selfish, and it is so true!"

And because of being what you are, you try to walled us from pain and difficulties. You keep on strengthening us even at times that we and You is so weak. You're the only man that made me of what I became, I become and will become someday. You provided us with everything that we need, despite of the hardship that you experienced, instead of experiencing them all with us., You taught us to stand on our own, but at times we are far from you, the loneliness we feel is quite that different. Your desire of keeping us together made each of us stronger to hold on each day. I'm so blessed that I have you as what you are in my life. It's amazing to know that despite of the storms that you encountered for us, you are still very thankful for what we have right now. And I guess, that's the spirit. And I'm so glad that I also have it because of you.

With every word you speak, youmade these eyes of mine away from dryness. Not because of hurt asnd pain but of so much happiness becuase i was born for you, and because of you.

I ♥ You PAPA!

I'll promise to still be your little princess through the ages. And you will always be the King in me,

After a DECADE and a HALF .. =)

Wednesday, November 18, 2009 - Posted by Joberlyn Manaois at 12:01 AM
The tough 15 years of my life was really unforgettable. It's when I think that I'm actually growing up. At my early age, innumerable experiences are my indulgence. From easy to difficult, from little to small to big to large, from happy to sad, from sorrow to laughter. I have been through a lot of these experiences which made me of what i am now.

at 1, my father was only the man of my life, and my mother was the only friend I trusted a lot.

at 2, mama and papa were the words I tell everyone.

at 3, it is when I try to choose for myself, yet my parents know what's best for me.

at 4, I started collecting friends who turn my each day to an amazing one.

at 5, learning was inevitable, it is when abc's and 123's play their biggest role in my life.

at 6, my first to a bigger world challenges me a lot.

at 7, it is when I tell to myself that 1 + 1 is always 2 and not 3 or 0 and even 1.

at 8, my life is accompanied with such rhythm and beat of sounds.

at 9, friendship was actually what I treasure most.

at 10, I'd known that life was a battle to fight on, and a journey to move on.

at 11, failures are my finest teachers.

at 12, I begin to search my true identity.

at 13, I've known that my life is actually mine and not of others.

at 14, my heart softens at someone who came along with me in my journey.

at 15, life was never easy, i have to stand to live for my own and for those whom I love. The battle gets tougher and tougher each day and the journey was difficult to move on.

and yet, there is this MAN who guides me throughout a DECADE and a HALF, who planned everything about me and of me, even the single strand of my hair, and the tiniest wound I have.

My life, it is no longer steady, I can never be always 15 for the next years to come. I'm growing old and I'm growing so fast. Everything in my life is changing, and I don't still have the thoughts of what will happen next ..

at 16, ....

Oozing the PAIN was never FUN .. =(

Tuesday, November 17, 2009 - Posted by Joberlyn Manaois at 11:48 PM
Time of my life, that's what I look for. To have the time where I will succeed and find that true and right someone who would actually hold me high and tight. Someone who would never let me go as they always say, and that someone that can take my breath away. For all these long, tough years, i have been with someone I thought and still hoping to be my forever till my very end, to be my happiness and my future success.

I were still very young since I got fell in love with him. Then, it was never in my mind. and never in him also, that we may took a long run in our relationship. We've been through hard days, difficult weeks and months, and even painful years. Painful it is, loving is soothing in the soul yet slowly breaking you and causing you so much pain. But I tell you, holding on even in times of giving up made us stronger, keep us standing until the next tick of the clock.

Yet, behind that "holding on" are unheard heartbeats asking for help, to hear their helpless sounds. Oozing the pain from the inside was never really fun. Even crying to let the hurt out, was never a remedy. Telling how much hurt you feel was never even a cure. What else can I do? What else can I choose for?

For now, it's about, hearing those unheard heartbeats, wiping those tears of crying feelings, and waiting for the next tick of the clock where I am hoping that we can be happy again, live our lives in our unending success.

Lose no hope for the both of us. Keep holding on and never that giving up. Let every happiness and pain sooth into our souls.


If Only I Can..

Wednesday, September 16, 2009 - Posted by Joberlyn Manaois at 3:01 AM

There are these instances in my life of where my strengths ang weaknesses are both tested. Instances that happen on a very ordinary day that may or may not keep your breath away. I once knew that my family and my friends are my weaknesses, yet they became my strengths at any sorts. But how? How does it goes that way? Whenever, I am given an opportunity to show off myself, I keep thinking that if ever I made the opportunity, my family and friends would be so much happy for me, and also for themselves. In short, they became my genuine inspirations. The treasures that make me more brilliant and even shine more. I'm very glad seeing them smiling with me because of my victory, laughing with me because of my success, celebrating with me because of my triumph. So replenishing, so nourishing, so fulfilling in the soul, especially when you know someone is very cheering for you. Nice feeling, isn't it?


But there are also these times when they became my weaknesses, making me the weakest person compared to a very sickly and depressed man. Those times are tear-falling instances. Some can be controlled, come can't be and just really wanted to show. It is just happiness-lowering scene when i see my friedns especially my family suffering, most if they suffer because of me and for me. With health, with happiness, with bonding and fun, with wealth, with pleasure, with love and care, of all those things, i just hate seeing them all happening, knowing that it is really occurring. Those things made me feel depressed, sad and teary, and even that sorrowful.


For two different situations towards one fate, STRENGTHS of making it through success, WEAKNESSES of suffering of my loved ones that I should suffer instead, and of how I wish I will make it and I can step in those those sufferings, just IF ONLY I CAN.

It wasn't =(

Friday, August 28, 2009 - Posted by Joberlyn Manaois at 1:47 AM

Life wasn't just permanent at all. things always come and go knowingly and unknowingly, expectedly and unexpectedly, even if you like it or dislike it. My. life, my status, my placement, my living, and myself, everything is very different right now. I don't even know where do I really live and where do I really belong. I'm adjusting, yes I am, but it's hard, really hard. I'm getting hard coping up in this world, and accepting that this is reality and I can no longer escape from this reality. It's a mere fact that life is not a matter of choice or options, but life itself depends on one's fate and his way on working of his fate. I'm somehow lucky of still surviving until this 15th year of my life and continuing to survive until my last breath comes. Quite hard, very hard, so hard, living in this world with all the changes happening is never that simple like changing clothes daily. Positively, it's a lot of fun meeting new faces of different places. Interesting, knowing your strengths and weaknesses. Proudly saying, I can survive at all walks of life. Taking risks, long hours of travel, heavy things to carry, waters along the way, add up all the mud and dust, including the smoke and odor. Everything maybe so messy, so dirty, so unpleasing, but I'm on my way of making it. At all cross roads, we will surely make it, in unity, in failure and certainly, in success.

~leaning on~

Tuesday, August 18, 2009 - Posted by Joberlyn Manaois at 11:27 PM
Life wasn't easy at all and everybody agrees with that. Even you are still the richest man in the world I know you could even burst into your mouth that life wasn't really that easy.

♥I've found it..♥

Saturday, June 27, 2009 - Posted by Joberlyn Manaois at 12:19 AM
For all of my life, I've found now the thing that I was looking for. The challenge that I know will bring out he best of me. The thing that I know will surely define everything of me, at all aspects, at all matters, at all parts. The strengths I possess, the weakness I have, and even the things that I know is best for me yet, is the worst of me or perhaps, the reverse thing it does.

As I first step on the place that I know will become my second home, I've got this fear and fright, that some time along, I'd get so difficult and made to a point of already giving up. And yes, it really happen, even at the shortest time of staying there, I've felt so much trembling on it. At every word I encounter, at any problem and especially at every person I'd met.

At first, its nice to know that there are still a lot of people who would care to know you even if you look like a stranger of such place, even if you are looking so different above everybody else in that group of people. But, you should never trust anyone, even if he would really look as someone that can be trusted. People is very different from each other. Yes, it is. They make treat you good at first and treat you bad until the end. You will never expect everything that going between everybody else that you'd never know since before. What I've realized ? There's no one that I compare to my old friends, and they are the best among all people in the world. For now, I don't get along that well on people that I've never knew that well.

Till next time ...

♥Finding Happiness♥

Friday, June 12, 2009 - Posted by Joberlyn Manaois at 12:39 AM
It's been already a long time ago since I'd find him, get along with him, and spend a part of me life with him. But now, where starting to get worse everyday that life gets through on us. I used to cry at any time of the day because of him. People tend to tell me of freaking out because of him. But why? Isn't that right ? I'm just getting into my emotions of loving him a lot that whenever we get worse I just don't know what to do but cry. But, in every time I wake up, suddenly a thought comes to my mind, keep telling me to stop being that foolish girl loving a man who does not even love me the same way I'd loved him. Some says, 'stupidity' is occurring on me now.. and how come ...

There's this another person who tend to get close of me. Try to comfort me at times of frustration and downfall. whew! I'm afraid of getting involved with him. I'm afraid that whenever the time comes I get along with my life by myself, and when I got to involved with him, I will be thinking of my past. So confusing for now .. so much ..

And besides, I'm on for school now. Meeting new friends and having a lot of goodies. And, I'd love the life I have for now, get my life by myself in Davao. Managing my own self. And feels good that I'm ok with my life now.
Just being good.

♥Undying Passion♥

Friday, May 29, 2009 - Posted by Joberlyn Manaois at 8:21 PM
May 19, 2009

A lifetime
A lifetime happiness would never be found when you're alone, when you get to travel life in your ways, your thoughts and your own actions. Taking everything of life with your own decisions. Life becomes terribly unwell when you live as an individual, living from the care of other people That when everything seems bad that only you can fix for every thing that is broken.

But then, along this long life, you'll gonna find someone, who will become a part of your life, who will gonna take his time and attention to lend to you and grasp you in every minute that life crosses for the both of you. He will be that someone that would care you like nobody else does. Someone that is willing to sacrifice everything, for you to experience and live life to the fullest with happiness that you were really looking for. Someone you could share the finest laughters you've treasured most and those valuable tears that roll down from your eyes that would suddenly gone and dries up as he wipes all of it. Giving you all of his hanky for him to wipe your tears whenever you cry whenever he is not around.

A loving feeling that whenever you want to run and escape the reality of life, there is that someone you could always rely on and together, both of you shout and conquers the whole world. Running under the big and small drops of water in the cold climate, playing and reminiscing the green fields. Having a lot of fun in the mud while throwing water with each other. And whenever his there, it is a very nice feeling sitting beside each other, holding each others' hand and talking all times you've spent and telling each other how much you loved him and her. And its good to know that whenever the road of life gets tougher, both of you, hand in hand, taking time to fix and straighten the crooked road.

But there are these times, destiny tests the strength of love and commitment you've been sharing, when it gets to the point that its between you and him against the whole world. But then, you've still made for it and prove the whole world that there is no greater than the world could separate the both of you. It is then a battle of the both of you with God as your guide in rival of the whole world. Sometimes, it feels like giving up, but they should not, because there is no greater thing that could ever defeat the love that you've been sharing for someone. But above all, it is just between you and him, taking everything that world gives and treasure, living it to the fullness.

Life would be very nice when you just try to follow your heart, think wisely, give your best and learning to love the REST.

♥♥ I LOvE my !eyded ♥♥

♥Risky chances♥

Monday, May 25, 2009 - Posted by Joberlyn Manaois at 1:19 AM
May 17, 2008


Taking risks in life has been the most cruel and very playful thing I'd done in my life. It's a guide for a straight or could be a crooked path towards the end of a journey. It's a thing describe as "now or never". At times life was settled to a 50-50 condition, a life and death unseen battle, when there no manifestos, no prospects, no maps, and no guides, and everything is unclear. Perhaps, one thing is sure above them all, it is my way, your way, our way is unimagined. Things come and go unexpectedly, suddenly, unconsciously.

Tough moments which test everything in you, mild and calm moments which would really mend you to stay as that for long and keep telling you not to move on towards the next step in life. Yet, sometimes, it has been fun, like playing a game and winning, winning and winning. It seems to be a very loving feeling that I don't want to end up everything for now, but whenever the time came that you lose the game, failing to reach your goals after taking hard time of doing all the risks, here you are, in a very downfall memento of which you just to shut up, sit down and set everything aside.

Like a man who wants to commit suicide by jumping from a very high building trying to end his miserable life. A sense of giving up that all the hope in you had gone and flew with the wind. And seems like everybody don't really care at all, in you, about you and of you. Whenever you fail, every mistake you've done which caused you to fail became a talk of town. People tend to talked badly without knowing that they were already hurting people, making people feel that life is already over and there are no hopes for that.

But it wasn't! For sometimes when we fail, some people try to take chances again and go on especially when the thing that they have been taking risks for is very precious and significant for them. But for some other time, everybody will really become so tired and just think of losing up everything they'd done, even though there are still a lot of time and chances to grab.

Life is just a way of deciding whether you take a risk and take a hard time on it, or just set it aside and just let the time flow wherever, whenever it goes. But remember, upon taking risks. There are still a lot of people who's still willing to their hands, enabling you to hold on to them and go, move on! But in case you are always failing and falling down, never ever keep into your mind the thing called GIVING UP! Because whenever you stand up from falling, it defines hope for new chapter of success, not now but maybe LATER!

Life is filled with a number of chances and yopu just have to find the right chance for you to win the battle.


♥♥♥♥♥♥
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ EVERYTHING is under HIS plan, just BELIEVE! ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

A game of chances

Thursday, May 7, 2009 - Posted by Joberlyn Manaois at 2:33 AM
Terribly wrong, I thought life was so easy as playing with toys. It would be as grabbing everything that is in front of you , but really its not! You be suffering too much pain for you to get everything that is in front of you. Dreams are hindered by many people, insults, sarcasms, disappointments and the like. Tough, very tough, so tough! You didn't know what will happen next. What will gonna happen if you make this, make that, say this and say that. Getting tired, getting difficult, getting harsh. For sometimes, you just want to cry in a loud scream for the world to hear that you are hurting. But then, sad to know, no one else cares. If you commit mistakes, people turn down on you, look so down, very down on you. Thinking that you are the most imperfect person living in this entire universe. Losing opportunities, taking chances, what else life should give?

nO regrets!!

Posted by Joberlyn Manaois at 2:19 AM

New decisi0n in lyf.. put t0 blame? or put t0 never?

i think i’m happy ! i think i’m n0t .. =[[.. mxaya nah aq ngeun kxi jan pa rin xa !! pr0 di pra xa akin.. pr0 pra xa iba!!

hMm, lam q mxama mgxel0x !! hahaha !! gugma nah lng jhud !! hMm, after all d0x tryin’ stiLL never satisfied datx his xtiLL der !!

aHm, xana man gud kxi ala q nah lng y0n gnawa !! pr0 i xh0uld never regret.. kxi bc0x 0f it i learned a l0t..

th0oinhx !! hahaha !! bhala nah kng n0h mngyari .. pr0 xana di nq mxktan .. pr0 kei nah lng din , at leaxt n0w i kn0w f0r evry hurt i learn ..

learning nah lng jhud q always and ala nah tama q mbuhat !! hahaiy !! give and give nah lng !! kunchabgay!! itx better t0 give dan 2 receive !!

wixhing all g0od f0r me !! i mean bext d.i !! bhala nah !! unta jhud dli nah xad q mgcc in d end !!

happy man q n0w, pr0 xad in a p0int nah i think he’s n0t rily der !! bxtah unexplainable feeling !! ala gud sure2 ..

daw 50-50 jap0n !! hMm, daw feel q in the end , mglub0g ghp0n ang bangka!! hahaha !! bhala nah !! by G0d’x grace and mercy, h0pe everything will be g0od !!

pLxXxx !! i learned t0 sacrifice, i experience x0o much pain , i give my aLL, and h0ping everything will be d bext !!

xana tlga !! pLxXxXx !!

in despair :]

Posted by Joberlyn Manaois at 2:18 AM
what a hell ! my life is terribly getting a mess.. i always get freaking out with him. without then neither thinking of will be the effect to me.. I continue believing of foolish promises.. damn all of him! why is it i cant have that mysterious courage of telling him that once again i want to be free. free from his passion and cruelness. i hate him for being himself. yet, as an imperfect one, i still continue loving him as one of my best ones. I’m still in despair of everything we have. especially of the time i got to know him and answered him yes. of then before, i was thinking that, that certain time was then my best, but truly, my worst. my life got ruined because of that freaking him! i never really expect that with innocent outer garment is an ugly, deadly man. [hahaha..!] still can’t believe and bear in mind, that I’d made it. made my life miserable. dreams and success came at to risks. to whom then, could i run to ? help !